The Void

Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death.

James 1:15

It’s interesting to me how sin works. From how it begins to its devastating outcome in our life. Yet, we continue to fall victim to it over, and over, and over again. Scripture is very clear where sin in our life begins; it’s rooted within the desires of ourself.

When we entertain the desires within us, we open the door for temptation to parade through uninhibited. And when we choose to give into that desire, conception takes place within our hearts and minds, resulting in the birth or action we take, sin.

The picture James paints here is rather graphic. It’s the idea of a pregnancy, which brings joy and pleasure. The anticipation of something great. A sad picture of what sin is. In the moment it might be pleasurable and exciting. We might even be convinced that the outcome is worth while, that we will be happy in the end.

Just like that pregnancy. Waiting for the birth.

But instead, sin is like a stillborn baby. What was once anticipation and excitement, even pleasure in the moment is now heartbreak. It’s devastation that ripples out in our life.

Sin often leaves us in a state of numbness and disconnect; I call it the void.

A place of loneliness, feeling like God’s presence has left and now I’m stuck and numb. Not sure what to do, because after all what I did didn’t bring me the result I was anticipating.

The void is an easy place to find yourself, and an easy place to get stuck in. As a flower of Jesus I’m going to have moments where I fail and give into temptation. Following Jesus does not prevent me from sinning. It also doesn’t grant me a license to sin. What following Jesus does is provide a means of grace and forgiveness when I sin.

That grace, made possible by Jesus dying in my place on a cross and my acceptance of it in faith, provides the avenue for me to escape the void. As a follower of Jesus I am not alone when I fail to obey, and sin.

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted

    and saves the crushed in spirit.

Psalm 34:18

Words written by a guy who sinned a lot in his life. Yet, had one of the most profound relationships with God. The words for you and I today as followers of Jesus are just as true as they were for King David. When I mess up I’m not alone, even when I feel like it.

Satan does a great job convincing us of lies. He did it in the garden with Eve, giving a half truth to convince her of a lie. Her and Adam’s response after they sinned is much like we find ourselves in the void. They ran and hid from God, knowing what they had done was sin. They felt alone, ashamed, numb. How could God still love them, care about them after what they did.

And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God called to the man and said to him, “Where are you?”

Genesis 3:8-9

While we think in the aftermath of our sin God has deserted us, the reality is what we see with Adam and Eve. We ran from God. We turned away and ran. Finding ourself in the void isn’t because God left. We did. And just like with Adam and Eve, God is calling us. Not because He doesn’t know where we are, but to remind us of where He is.

Are yo stuck in the void of your sin? Do you feel lost, lonely, numb, like God has walked away?

God never turned His back on you. He’s been there the whole time, calling you back to Himself.

The question is, will you get up and go back to Him. Will you repent and humble yourself before Him. Being stuck in the void is your choice.

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